
"Sleeping Girl" by Susanna Mayer (http://smayer.gr/)
Listening to: "Across the Universe" - Fiona Apple
Sometimes I wonder why I feel so afraid of achieving happiness. I just wrap myself up in my sadness security blanket. I become so afraid of failure that it seems pointless to try.
These are things that I need to work on.
I just want to become a "mover of lives," and make a difference. How am I supposed to do that when all I do is sleep? This constant coma will be the end of me. How many times do I need to hit the snooze button before I finally wake up?
These are more things that I need to add to the list.
I know that the change lies within myself. I can receive all the help and assistance in the world (which of course, I am eternally grateful for), but everything needs to happen with my own hands. It will not be easy, but I could use a good challenge these days.
And yes, typing while in fetal position is not very comfortable. Not at all.